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I know I’ve been posting a lot of negative things in here lately (or always), but things aren’t all that bad. It’s just that I’m only in a bad mood or something when I feel like posting here. Otherwise I’ll just say something on my LiveJournal.

So don’t worry, I’m not depressed or anything, but I can’t be cheerful and happy all the time :)

Although maybe I was mildly depressed or something before Christmas, for a whole bunch of reasons. First, I hate winter and the cold, and it started early and cold this year. My girlfriend decided to break up with me (something done and gone, and not really needing much more discussion). And I was working at Wal-Mart during the crazy Christmas seasons. That would be enough to drain the energy out of anybody.

But I’ve got lots of positive things in my life to think about now. I’ve been reading a lot more since Christmas, finally. Still only averaging a book every two weeks, but it’s better than not reading at all. I use to read quite a lot. I have some newer friends I’ve been talking to lately, and that’s always good. An enjoyable part of my day. The weather is finally getting better, after our 7 months or so of cold, bitter winter. I have some possible ideas for making a little extra money, with little effort or investment. I have to put those into action real soon. I finally have an aquarium with some cool fish - something I’ve been wanting to get for a while now.

Things could always be better of course, but the trick is in not worrying about things like that. Just try to be happy being as happy as you are now. Or something :) so, I’m not too worried. I’m happy now.

I’ve been sitting here thinking to myself that my whole computer setup is annoying and crap. Lots of little things could use upgrading, but I just don’t really care much. I recently got Pentium Pro and Ultra 5 systems, yet I hardly use them for anything. Or even my own computer for that matter. Mostly just chatting and listening to music. Nothing really needing upgrading other than the hard drive, to store more music.

Part of it might be that I just don’t have anything else in mind to spend spare money on. I don’t have a girlfriend. I don’t have a car (or even my license right now) - I live within walking distance of work, so I don’t really need one right now. I live in an apartment, so I can’t even save up to do any type of renovations. I’d like to go back to school at some point, but not right now. I have more than enough books to read at the moment, and little time for reading. I don’t get to see my friends often, because I work nights and weekends (might have occasional weekends off at some point, but I’m not holding my breath).

Another part might be that I’m off tonight (and tomorrow), and I haven’t been doing much of anything all night. Including talking to anybody for the last few hours. So I’ve been bored. Completely my own fault. But It looks like it’s going to be a nice day, so maybe I’ll go for a bike ride soon and take some pictures.

I suppose some people might think it’s some sign of depression, but it’s more like boredom. Maybe I just need some longer-term goals, because right now I don’t have any at all.

On a computer related note, I do want to upgrade my server. Right now it’s been suffering due to a slow hard drive and CPU, and not enough RAM. But upgrading that is going to mean reinstalling things (since the system itself is a bit of a mess right now), and I’m not really in the mood for that.

It’s been an exhausting couple of weeks at work. My schedule has changed slightly from week to week, ending up in me having to work 6 days in a row. I’m not used to doing that anymore. But if we start a rotating schedule like other parts of the store, it might be something like 7 on, 2 off, 3 on, 2 off. Which wouldn’t be so bad, I guess. It would mean I had every second weekend off. But we’ll see what happens. Nothing was definite, other than rumours of change after inventory.

Which is thankfully tomorrow. Tonight is going to be the last inventory-related annoyance for a while. It’s been nothing but a pain in the ass (due to things we’re supposed to do/not do, and dealing with the day crew that do the opposite). Back to normal on Friday (well, Wednesday, but I’m off for two nights after tonight).

I ordered a 7.2″ LCD on eBay, designed for cars but it also has an AC adapter - good for gaming and watching movies. I’ll probably end up actually playing my Gamecube (and Dreamcast) more often now, since I won’t have to go downstairs to play. I’ve been thinking about getting a small TV for my room, but this LCD is costing just a little bit more, and I actually have the room for it - leaving me with more room for monitors in the future :) And my Sun ultra 5 workstation should get here sometime this week. Possibly today or tomorrow. That would be cool. New toys!

I haven’t had a haircut for a while. Probably won’t for a while in the future. I don’t know if I want to grow it long again, because that was often a pain in the ass. Not that it really matters either way. Whatever takes the least amount of effort :)

I’ve been keeping up on reading books lately, about 2 weeks or so per book. I just finished another one yesterday, and will be starting a new one soon. Probably Imperial Earth, by Arthur C. Clarke, because I haven’t read much by him lately (other than 3001).

The new Metallica album is “out”, but it sucks. I downloaded it anyway, just for the sake of pirating it. If I was a Metallica fan that would buy it before listening to it… well, let’s just say that I’m glad I’m not. I’ve bought too many crappy CDs in the past, I won’t usually buy something without downloading it first anymore. Same with movies (there are always exceptions, of course).